Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Not what I thought I would write about

When I started this blog, I thought I would write about my amazing kids & my awesome husband and about our day-to-day activities. I have 3 beautiful children who could fill up page after page of stories. They all are wonderful and magical, but my fingers don't seem to want to write about that and I feel guilty that my thoughts always turn back to other's.

I want to write about Maddie. I want to write about all the unfair crap that happens to great people everyday. I want to understand. I want to understand why tragedy has not hit my family?? Please don't get me wrong, I am not wishing this upon us. I just keep asking "WHY did it have to happen to them"?? In particular, why Maddie? That little girl has touched more lives than any other human I know. There was something deep in her eyes. I like to think she was an old soul and here to teach us all something.

I'm sure I am not alone in fearing the worst happening to our kids. I read about it everyday on the internet and am ALWAYS amazed at the strength, persistence and grace of the people that have dealt with tragedy. I often wonder what would happen if it was MY kid that something happened to. I truly don't think I would possess a quarter of the strength that I have seen in others.

I, unfortunately, came to Heather's blog after Maddie had passed and had to learn of her from the old posts. I was shocked about how devastated I was by her passing. Here was a girl I didn't even know, yet I mourned her deeply. For a good two months I was a wreck. I was in pieces and thought about her everyday, all day. I kept asking myself why I was so affected by her and wasn't it a little odd that I was THAT heartbroken over her? But then, after seeing the posts from others, I realized that I was not alone in loving this little girl. There is a common (purple) thread between us all, it is our love for the Famous Madeline.

After much thought about the 'why'....I think I figured it out. Heather's blog brings us all together and shows us the true human spirit and in a world where that is very hard to see. I know that I can go to her blog and see the true love of people. It reminds me of post-911. When everyone pulled together, regardless of religion, race, etc. We all put our hand out to help one another.

I just want to say thank you to all of Heather's readers for helping me see that the good in people still exists.

4 comments:

Lisa said...

I think we as mothers mourn Maddie because we know how easily it could have been one of our kids.

Midwest Mommy said...

I have read Heather's blog for about two years. I felt like I knew Maddie. I can't even tell you how much her story has impacted my life. It really could have been any one of us and that freaks me out.

Alex said...

I know how you feel. I stumbled upon their blog by accident and it took me a while to figure out what it was about. I found myself in tears and I still cry each time I read it. It breaks my heart that people have to go through such things.

Jenny said...

I agree with this post 100%.

I think the way Heather shares this messy, awful, human emotional roller coaster of horror it so touching. It is so real, and she writes beautifully. She is so relatable, and it is hard to explain to someone who doesn't know Maddie's story and Heather's blog to understand how broken up you can feel over the loss of this special girl.

You did a good job of explaining and putting into words how I also feel about Heather and Maddie.