Who am I?

39 has become a BIG 'who-am-I' kind of year. Maybe it is the big 40 looming that is scaring the hell out of me, but all of a sudden things in my life are taking a new perspective.

A few months back, I was watching an episode of Oprah and saw an piece about Matt Logelin and how he lost his wife right after she gave birth to their beautiful baby girl, Madeline. On his blog he spoke of a woman named Heather Spohr who had just lost her precious baby girl. Ever since that day, her blog is the first thing I read when I open my eyes. There is something about her that has stirred something in me. I have never met her, yet I feel as though I am one of her closest friends. Her writing makes you feel like you are in her inner circle. I have cried millions of tears with her and for her. I laughed at the stories she shares about Maddie. She has forever changed my life. In some ways I know, and in others I feel like it has yet to be revealed.

So, how does this parlay in to my life? Wish I knew. What I do know is that I was meant to find her blog and it was meant to stir me. My soul is forever drawn to her and my heart will forever mourn her baby girl.

I know this probably sounds like a very disjointed conversation, and it is, but I guess this is what this blog will be all about. Random thoughts spilling on the computer.